First off, this is going to be very fragmented. I have thoughts here and there and no way of organizing them.
After some failed attempts to get different groups of friends to watch How To Train A Dragon 2 with me (what, a 23-year old can't watch cartoons?!), I decided to pop by the cinema myself after work on Saturday.
First off, there was this advertisement I really liked, about how an ex-prison inmate turned a new leaf and dedicated herself to helping others. To quote her, "when you help others find their way, you also find yours" - sometimes, when you're overwhelmed, you become blind to the important things you need to see in order to find your own path. When you decide to help another with finding theirs, along the way you start to see what they need to face, which in turn becomes what you needed to find from the very start. This is actually one of the reasons why I decided to join a career in healthcare, to dedicate my work to helping others - I know that with this, I won't lose myself.
Coming to the How To Train Your Dragon franchise, one of the reasons why I really love these movies is that unlike most other children's movies where everything turns out well and good with no real loss, they show that there are times where you have to sacrifice important things that mean to you in order to attain a greater good. These sacrifices are real and permanent.
And back to real life - I guess I've never been someone brimming with confidence. It's a good thing I have a little more (lol) but I have to remind myself to tread carefully. To not allow overconfidence to take me over. Why I'm being treated differently, albeit in a positive way, also bothers me a lot. To someone who values impartiality, it hurts to see a friend being reprimanded while I'm not, even though mistakes I make could have been of larger magnitude. Is it a question of experience? Not that I agree with, if that's the case. Yes, maybe I do have life a bit easier, but I would feel better if I were dumped the same shit, because guilt is a harder thing to bear.
Then again, c'est la vie.